left behind
all the hype about the multiplication is slowly but surely dying down, and i still don't know where i'm going next year. thanks alot. parents are at adam, but there are alot of other factors that affect my decision.
1) acjc application. i'm still not sure whether i'll be in next year. admission test on 6th dec. and i'll know within a week. meaning that i'll know after camp on the 13th. thanks alot for giving me less than 3 weeks to decide my entire future for the next year or so ahead. grrr.
2) whether i'm staying back in z1. it's pending my acjc application, lest i cannot cope with the transition into another school and all. rahhhh. so annoying. so that's not within my control too!!!
3) where i am going to be next year: adam / pl. this decision is only to be made after i clear the first two issues!!! and so it all starts from the application to acjc. rahhh.
i'm starting to panic cos i feel i don't have enough time to think it through. i feel i don't have enough time to throughly sort out my thoughts; to pick my fragmented pieces of the puzzle out of the maelstrom spinning madly that is time.
it all goes back to whether i trust God's hand or not. whether i will let Him guide me through all these. jer 29:11 has become etched in my heart across recent weeks. to have faith in that promise, and see it through knowing God has the best in mind for me is the challenge ever so daunting.
and then there are other issues to settle. i think i'm going to let go of it. it's slowly but surely killing me. i'm holding on too much... aren't i? i think i am.
if you'd be honest and say what you mean
you know i would promise i'd do anything
cos i know that without you
i'm giving it away
you know i would promise i'd do anything
cos i know that without you
i'm giving it away
1:15 AM
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